Longings for Significance

Lord, thinking about my own longings for significance...

First in books, stories – looking for stories that would move / inspire me to greatness (fulfillment). Then something similar with music – looking for songs that really put their finger on "this is the way it is..." (life), which you could then carry with you. I was looking for something like a North Star... but which you could carry with you, and it would always point you North.

And both books & music were fleeting... you'd stumble across something transcendent here and there, but you could never predict it, or know where you'd find it, and there was a lot of drivel to wade through. [This reminds me of C. S. Lewis in Surprised by Joy]

I feel like a lot of what I'm doing now, in my 50s, is going back to some of these old guests – books, stories, music... – but trying to sor through what I have learned after all these years, to organize it.

It is interesting how much of Scripture seems to wait to open up until we come to it a) in need, b) with the right questions. Finding and asking questions seems to be a key part of the spiritual process... Also, learning enough of the Story (in its various parts) so that it can start to answer those questions.